Moving to Boston to work for Converse has allowed me to be unavailable and flighty with people. I should admit it before I do it anymore. This is one characteristic that is absolutely unacceptable to me in a friendship so why should I expect others to deal with it at all. So I am sorry world if I took you for granted.
Talking and loving need to be my favorite things again, because they are both hard and scary right now. To really talk and feel... I don't know if I do it anymore.
A lot of everything has been crushed within me, I'm just trying to make sense of it all even if it doesn't all fit back in its old order...
... but I am still here.
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I imagine they're on vacation and we're keeping things together until they get back and this way when things get hard I just think, only a few more days and then mom will take care of it. So then there's nothing to talk about because everything's the same. hmm....
ReplyDeleteI think they will come back through memories, because right now it is hard to think of them without the "end".
ReplyDeletePlus you have their giant nose ;)